Thursday, June 02, 2022

In full view: Angry French diplomats strike over reform

By Elaine Ganley
June 3, 2022 — 

Paris: Members of the French diplomatic corps dropped their veil of invisibility to go on a rare strike on Thursday, angered by a planned reform they worry will hurt their careers and France’s standing in the world. It was the second such strike in nearly 20 years.

Between 100 and 200 diplomats dropped the traditional reserve that often defines their work to demonstrate in full view of the imposing Ministry of Europe and Foreign Affairs, the home base for the foreign service. In overseas posts, ranging from Tokyo to the Middle East and Washington, numerous diplomats, including some ambassadors, honoured the day-long strike.


Members of the French diplomatic corps dropped their discretion to go on a rare strike in Paris on Thursday.CREDIT:AP

They want President Emmanuel Macron to scrap a plan to merge career diplomats with a larger body of civil servants, starting in January, or at least hold a dialogue.

The plan, announced by Macron in an April decree, will reportedly affect about 800 diplomats.

 Opponents claim that’s just the beginning.

“We risk the disappearance of our professional diplomacy,” a group of 500 diplomats, wrote in a commentary published last week in Le Monde newspaper. “Today, [diplomatic] agents ... are convinced it is the very existence of the ministry that is now being put into question.”

The planned change comes amid the war in Ukraine and complex negotiations over Iran’s nuclear program, and while France holds the European Union’s rotating presidency.


Diplomats strike near the French Foreign Ministry in Paris.
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France has the world’s third-largest diplomatic network with some 1800 diplomats and about 13,500 officials working at the foreign ministry.

Ministry officials have said the reforms will preserve the diplomatic profession and careers.
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Newly appointed Foreign Minister Catherine Colonna, herself a career diplomat, has not commented. However, she will meet with unions and representatives of the protest movement for an initial “listening” session next week, the ministry said.

Demonstrators held banners reading “Professional diplomats on strike”, “Diplomacy in danger”, “Investing for peace is worth it, no?” and “There can be no long-term diplomacy with short-term diplomats” across from the ministry, known as the Quai d’Orsay for its location by the River Seine.

French diplomats are angered by a planned reform they worry will hurt their careers and France’s standing in the world.
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“To say that diplomacy is in danger, that word may be too strong,” said Maurice Gourdault-Montagne, a former ambassador to China, Japan and Britain, who was taking part. But, he added, “diplomacy will be weakened,” at a time when those skills are especially needed.

“To become an ambassador, before getting to the top of the ladder, it is necessary to actually tick some boxes,” said another demonstrating diplomat, identifying himself only as Benjamin. “And this reform supports the idea that there is no need for such skills.” Like others not yet at the top rung, he declined to give his full name.

The government reform is meant to modernise and diversify France’s diplomatic corps, created in the 16th century, and to bring down the walls of what some in the government see as an elite institution turned in on itself.

It will put diplomats into a large pool from all branches of public service, encouraging switches to other ministries and forcing personnel to compete with outsiders for prized diplomatic posts.

Diplomats contend their job requires specialisation and expertise acquired over years in posts around the world — and has no room for amateurs.

“Today, I am on strike,” Deputy Ambassador to the United States Aurelie Bonal tweeted. “Diplomats negotiate, talk, compromise. They generally do not go on strike.”

Bonal raised yet another worry that protesting diplomats contend the change could generate: cronyism. “Without a diplomatic corps, it will be much easier for the [government] to appoint friends at all levels of diplomatic jobs,” she tweeted.

Dominique de Villepin, a former prime minister and foreign minister known for an eloquent 2003 speech at the United Nations in which he declared French opposition to the US-led invasion of Iraq, labelled the pending reform in a tweet last month “A historic fault”.

For France, the loss of diplomats’ separate status in the civil service means “a loss of independence, a loss of competence, a loss of memory that will weigh heavily on the years ahead,” Villepin tweeted.

Even before Macron’s decree, frustration had festered in the Foreign Ministry’s halls over cuts in funding, personnel and outsourcing. The group commentary in Le Monde deplored “decades of marginalisation of the ministry’s role within the [French] state” as well as “a vertiginous reduction” in personnel — down by 30 per cent in 10 years, the diplomats claim. Funding, they said, is but 0.7 per cent of the state budget.

The Twitter hashtag, #diplo2metier (diplomat by profession), shows a number of ambassadors around the world joining in or supporting of the strike.

“Defending the interests of France and serving France is not improvised,” French Consul General in San Francisco Frederic Jung wrote. “No doubt we need to reform and strengthen our diplomacy, but not to erase it,” said the diplomat of 18 years.

“I will be on strike ... to protest the reform of the diplomatic corps and the continued reduction of means for our diplomacy,” French Ambassador to Kuwait Claire Le Flecher tweeted on her personal account.

Bonal, the deputy ambassador to the United States, said the job of diplomat was more than “gorging on Ferreros in touristic countries. The truth is we also visit morgues & jails; we work very late hours, not always in safe countries,” she tweeted. “It’s a vocation, not a three-year experience.”

Bonal said she was among those who went on the first such strike in 2003, a protest over budget cuts.


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Alberta family calls for changes to justice system following trial over Métis hunters’ deaths

Breanna Karstens-Smith - Yesterday

The family of two Métis men killed in 2020 is now calling for changes to the justice system after a father and son were found guilty in the deaths.

Jacob Sansom, 39, and Maurice Cardinal, 57 were found dead on a rural road near Glendon, Alta., on March 28, 2020.

Over two weeks, court heard the men had been hunting for moose in the area and had stopped near the Bilodeau property around 9 p.m., which the Bilodeau family found suspicious and so they chased the men.

Throughout the trial, defence lawyers questioned multiple witnesses about Sansom and Cardinal’s drinking habits and their level of intoxication that night.

Medical records showed Sansom was nearly three times the legal blood-alcohol limit at the time of his death and Cardinal was nearly two times the legal limit.

Defence lawyers also tried to prove the men were aggressive. Two people from the Bilodeau family testified that Sansom threatened to skin them.

“They painted it up as if he (Jacob) was violent, (as if) he was an alcoholic,” Jacob Sansom’s sister Gina said.

“The same old stereotypes they paint Indigenous peoples as if his name, his family, who he was as a person does not exist.”

Jacob’s wife Sarah was called to testify during the trial. Defence lawyers asked her lengthy questions about how drunk her husband was that night.

Sarah said her words were twisted in the courtroom and in both traditional media and social media outside the courtroom.

“How are they talking about Jake and Maurice?” Sansom remembered feeling during the trial.

“It doesn't seem like that's who they're talking about because that's not who they were.”

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The Bilodeau family assumed that Sansom and Cardinal were thieves, however, no evidence was ever presented to support that.

Roger Bilodeau and his teenage son chased the victims down a rural road, calling Roger’s older son on the way. Roger told his 33-year-old son Anthony to bring a gun.

The chase ended in a fight and Anthony shooting and killing both Sansom and Cardinal in what he claimed was self-defence.

“Maurice and Jake were on trial, not Anthony and Roger,” Gina said.

Both Sansom and Cardinal were found to be unarmed, though an unloaded shotgun was discovered in Sansom’s truck, feet away from Cardinal’s body.

Both Bilodeaus were charged with second-degree murder.

Anthony Bilodeau was found guilty of that charge in the murder of Cardinal, but guilty of the lesser charge of manslaughter in the death of Sansom. Rogers was found guilty of two counts of manslaughter.

Gina believes Anthony’s defence lawyer’s line of questioning is the reason for the lighter charge.

“(Brian) Beresh was able to convince the jury that my brother was a violent drunk. A violent drunk. Even though my brother was none of those things,” she explained.

“It kind of blows your mind," Sarah agreed.

“You're like shaking your heads and we're like, ‘How is this happening?'”

Read more:
Alberta prosecutor points out lies while cross examining man accused of killing Métis hunters

Outside of court following the verdict Tuesday, Beresh shared his disappointment in the verdict saying he was exploring an appeal. He also defended his line of questioning.

“Every day in our courtrooms, I ask witnesses, regardless of their background, about alcohol,” he told media.

“Because we know alcohol affects a whole bunch of issues that are important in a trial like perception, judgment, response. We ask all witnesses that.”

But Gina said she believes treating cases equally does not mean equality since Indigenous people are already facing hardships and stereotypes.

It’s for that reason that her family is pushing for more education within the criminal justice system.

“That's the cultural safe space practice," Gina explained. "Educating lawyers, educating the RCMP, educating the Crown, educating even our judges to look for these things.

"And the jury will need to be instructed in these things.”

Sarah said she worries about the effect the entire tragedy will have on her young children. Their friends have told them they watched a security video of Sansom and Cardinal being killed.

The video was released during the trial with some media outlets posting it -- in its entirety -- online.

“My boy has said to me a few times, ‘When I'm older, am I going to die because I'm Indigenous?'" Sarah shared.

She said she hopes changes to the system will prevent other families and young children from facing the same fears.
CRIMINAL CAPITALI$M
Chemical maker TCP Group files pre-arranged bankruptcy

Yesterday 


HOUSTON (Reuters) - Texas petrochemical producer TCP Group filed for bankruptcy protection on Wednesday with a plan to hand over control to its lenders, after struggling under costs and legal claims from a 2019 fire.


 A process tower flies through the air after exploding at the TPC Group Petrochemical Plant in Port Neches

The Houston-based firm filed for Chapter 11 in U.S. Bankruptcy Court for the District of Delaware with plans to eliminate $950 million of $1.3 billion in secured debt and shed liabilities from an explosion and fire at its plant in Port Neches, Texas. The company had negotiated and agreed the deal with debt-holders.

The largest North American processor of the petrochemicals butane and butadiene, plans to continue operations while it restructures, said Chief Executive Edward J. Dineen in a statement. The chemicals are used in manufacturing of plastics, tires and gasoline.

The company faces federal and state investigations over the Port Neches fire, and is in negotiations with a committee representing some 7,000 claims for property damage, business interruption and personal injury, according to court filings.


The fire was "a critical event leading to" the bankruptcy, according to a court filing. The pandemic later cut into its business, cutting 2020 revenue nearly in half compared to 2019, and a winter storm in 2021 also hit sales, it said.


The case is U.S. Bankruptcy Court, District of Delaware, No. 22-10493.

(Reporting by Gary McWilliams; Editing by Lincoln Feast.)
GLOBAL SOLIDARITY FREE PALESTINE
Edmonton mass honours journalist Shireen Abu Akleh

Hamdi Issawi - Yesterday 
Edmonton Journal


A memorial mass in Edmonton for a journalist killed in the occupied West Bank celebrated the life of a woman whose coverage cast a light on the Palestinian people.

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Members of the Canada Palestine Cultural Association hold a memorial mass for Shireen Abu Akleh, at Our Lady of Help Maronite Church, 9805 76 Ave., in Edmonton Sunday May 29, 2022. Abu Akleh, a journalist with Al Jazeera, was shot and killed while covering a May 11, 2022 Israeli army raid in the city of Jenin, in the occupied West Bank of Palestine.

On Sunday, the Canada Palestine Cultural Association organized a service for Shireen Abu Akleh, a dual Palestinian-American national and Al Jazeera reporter who died May 11 while on assignment in Jenin, a northern city in the occupied West Bank.

Joe Hak, founder and former president of the World Lebanon Cultural Union, was one of the organizers of the mass at Our Lady of Good Help, a Maronite Catholic church in Edmonton’s Ritchie neighbourhood. While it was a sombre affair, he said, there was also a deep sense of pride for Abu Akleh and her work.

“She was a household name all over the world,” Hak said, “and particularly in the Arab world — carrying on her role as a journalist to report about the kinds of suffering, brutalities and atrocities committed against the Palestinians.”

Citing witnesses and the Palestinian health ministry, Al Jazeera reported that Abu Akleh, 51, was covering Israeli military raids in Jenin when she was shot dead by Israeli forces despite wearing a clearly marked “press” vest and standing among other journalists garbed in the same.


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Monsignor Sayed Kozhaya is highlighted by sunlight as he takes part in a memorial mass for Shireen Abu Akleh, at Our Lady of Help Maronite Church, 9805 76 Ave., in Edmonton Sunday May 29, 2022. Abu Akleh, a journalist with Al Jazeera, was shot and killed while covering a May 11, 2022 Israeli army raid in the city of Jenin, in the occupied West Bank of Palestine.


Israel’s government initially suggested Palestinian fire might have been to blame, but officials have also said they could not rule out it was Israeli gunfire that killed her. Witnesses told Al Jazeera there had been no confrontations between Palestinian fighters and the Israeli army at the time.

Abu Akleh covered Palestinian affairs and the Middle East for more than 20 years, Al Jazeera wrote, and colleagues and acquaintances described her as a “real journalist” as well as a voice for Palestinians.

“We wanted people to know who she was,” Hak added, “and we wanted to give her the honour she deserves.”

— With files from Reuters

hissawi@postmedia.com

@hamdiissawi


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Sourly Karam holds a rosary as she takes part in a memorial mass for Shireen Abu Akleh, at Our Lady of Help Maronite Church, 9805 76 Ave., in Edmonton Sunday May 29, 2022. Abu Akleh, a journalist with Al Jazeera, was shot and killed while covering a May 11, 2022 Israeli army raid in the city of Jenin, in the occupied West Bank of Palestine.


© David Bloom
Randa Alhijawi, president of the Canada Palestine Cultural Association, holds a Palestinian flag as she takes part in a memorial mass for Shireen Abu Akleh, at Our Lady of Help Maronite Church, 9805 76 Ave., in Edmonton Sunday May 29, 2022. Abu Akleh, a journalist with Al Jazeera, was shot and killed while covering a May 11, 2022 Israeli army raid in the city of Jenin, in the occupied West Bank of Palestine.


© David Bloom
Sourly Karam holds a green rosary as she takes part in a memorial mass for Shireen Abu Akleh, at Our Lady of Help Maronite Church, 9805 76 Ave., in Edmonton Sunday May 29, 2022. Abu Akleh, a journalist with Al Jazeera, was shot and killed while covering a May 11, 2022 Israeli army raid in the city of Jenin, in the occupied West Bank of Palestine.


SINGLE SOURCE SUPPLY CHAIN

Ontario hospitals monitor global shortage of contrast dye used for medical scans

A global shortage of contrast dye has forced some Ontario hospitals to limit or postpone certain diagnostic imaging scans.

Windsor Regional Hospital says it expects just half of its usual shipment of iodinated contrast dye in the coming weeks, and is not booking any new non-emergency CT, cardiac angiograms and diagnostic studies until at least the end of June.

It says "all hospitals in Ontario" have developed mitigation strategies to ration the solution after a major international supplier temporarily closed its main Chinese plant amid COVID-19 concerns and is still ramping up production.

The Windsor hospital says it will prioritize emergency care including "major trauma, possible strokes and cardiac issues, bowel blockages and critical care patients."

"The hospital will contact patients whose upcoming appointments are impacted by the rationing of contrast dye use," according to a statement issued Saturday.

Bluewater Health, which includes southwestern Ontario hospitals in Sarnia and the town of Petrolia, said Tuesday it also expected half of its usual supply but would manage by using other imaging methods that don't require the contrast dye.

It added that the issue has not impacted ultrasounds, X-rays or MRI exams with contrast, and that it "is not significantly affecting appointments."

The global shortage affects hospitals supplied by GE Healthcare's manufacturing site in Shanghai, which was closed for several weeks by COVID-19 policies in China. GE has three other manufacturing sites, including a plant in Cork, Ireland that expanded production to help cover the shortfall.

The plant in China reopened to 60 per cent capacity May 21 but it's expected to take several weeks for production to reach full capacity.


A spokeswoman for Toronto's North York General Hospital said it was "exploring if there are other supply options."

"Like hospitals across Ontario, this shortage will have some impact at North York General and we are working to minimize any impact to patient care," Anne-Marie Flanagan said in an emailed statement.

"This includes changing some of our imaging protocols to reduce or avoid the use of IV contrast while working to ensure that there are no negative impacts on quality and access to CT imaging."

Bluewater's medical director of diagnostic imaging said it was intent on ensuring patients were not adversely impacted.

"Locally, we are managing our supply by taking steps to limit our usage where possible and will continue to assess as we gain more insight on the shortage," Dr. Youssef Almalki said in a release.

A statement from Toronto's University Health Network, which includes the Toronto General and Toronto Western hospitals and the Princess Margaret Cancer Centre, said it was not experiencing the same supply strain since it gets its contrast dye from Bayer.

However, it acknowledged that the shortage could cause secondary strain if it increases demand on rival manufacturers.

"This means that many places are looking to Bayer as the source for contrast, which may affect everyone should the supply issue continue with GE," UHN said in a statement.

This report by The Canadian Press was first published June 1, 2022.

Cassandra Szklarski, The Canadian Press
STILL LESS THAN $15 PER HR
Minimum wage bill and others expected to pass before Manitoba legislature break

WINNIPEG — Politicians at the Manitoba legislature were preparing to pass more than 20 bills into law Wednesday night, including one to increase the minimum wage, before breaking for the summer.

© Provided by The Canadian PressMinimum wage bill and others expected to pass before Manitoba legislature break

The bills, some of which were first put before the legislature last fall, also covered issues such as civilian oversight of police and security at the legislative building.

"We've had a robust legislative session ... some (bills) to make life more affordable for Manitobans," said Premier Heather Stefanson, referring to a bill that offered higher rebates on property taxes.

The minimum wage bill proposed giving the government authority to boost the hourly rate above the current formula, which adjusts it every October to match the inflation rate from the previous year.

Under that formula, the wage is set to increase 40 cents to $12.35 an hour. Stefanson has said Manitoba needs to stay competitive with other provinces, and the government will decide on a new figure after consulting business and labour leaders.


Another bill set to go to a final vote would give additional powers to the Independent Investigation Unit, a civilian-led body that oversees police. The unit would have more power to compel officers to co-operate with investigators.

Other legislation would let the government ban certain activities — to be determined later by cabinet — from the legislature grounds. Offenders could be evicted and face fines. Lengthy encampments were set up on or in front of the legislature grounds earlier this year.


There were also bills on allowing electronic vote-counting during provincial elections, repealinga public-sector wage freeze and ensuring personal security of political candidates by removing their home addresses from Elections Manitoba's website.

Other bills were not expected to go to a final vote until the legislature resumes in the fall, including one that would loosen restrictions on cosmetic use of lawn pesticides. Another would cap electricity rates, although critics say it would shift some powers from the independent provincial regulator to the government. A third would allow for more private alcohol sales by expanding the range of products sold by private vendors.

The Opposition New Democrats used procedural rules to make sure the pesticide, electricity and other bills were not passed before the summer break.

"The NDP is looking forward and is ready with the solutions families need," NDP Leader Wab Kinew said in a news release.

The summer break will include a byelection Tuesday in the northern constituency of Thompson. The longtime NDP stronghold has been vacant since NDP MLA Danielle Adams died in a highway crash last December.

NDP Leader Wab Kinew missed the final two days of the spring sitting to help out the party's campaign in Thompson.

The Progressive Conservative government has been trailing the New Democrats in opinion polls for more than a year. A provincial election is scheduled for Oct. 3, 2023.

This report by The Canadian Press was first published June 1, 2022.

Steve Lambert, The Canadian Press
Regulator rules Flair Airlines is Canadian; upstart carrier can keep its licence

CALGARY — The Canadian Transportation Agency says Flair Airlines is Canadian.


© Provided by The Canadian PressRegulator rules Flair Airlines is Canadian; upstart carrier can keep its licence

The ruling means the Edmonton-based upstart carrier can keep its operating licence.

Canadian legislation allows no more than 49 per cent ownership of a Canadian airline by foreign entities.


The CTA had been investigating Flair's ownership to determine whether its relationship with Miami-based investor 777 Partners violated those rules.

Flair has made a number of changes as a result of the investigation, including a promise to increase the number of Canadians on its board.

Flair has faced opposition from larger rivals Air Canada, WestJet and 30-odd other carriers who have publicly called for the regulator to rule against it.

This report by The Canadian Press was first published June 1, 2022.

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COMMODITY FETISH 
The mint's one-kilogram platinum coin fetches more than $1.2 million at auction


OTTAWA — A one-kilogram platinum coin encrusted with hundreds of diamonds fetched more than $1.2 million at auction.



The Heffel Fine Art Auction House says an anonymous buyer took the Royal Canadian Mint's "The Ultimate" piece after heated bidding Tuesday.

Heffel says the price, which includes auction house fees, exceeded the pre-sale estimate of between $700,000 and $900,000 to set a new record for a coin offered at auction in Canada.

"The Ultimate" has a face value of $2,500 is made of 99.95 per cent pure platinum and has a rose-gold-plated rim.

The piece is engraved with a cherry blossom design by Canadian artist Derek Wicks.

A total of 462 pink diamonds embellish the petals of dozens of flowers that converge into a central bloom.

This report by The Canadian Press was first published June 1, 2022.

Coyote Hung Out Poolside During A Power Outage In Ottawa & It Started A Meme (PHOTOS)

NARCITY- Canada Edition (EN) - Yesterday 9:29 a.m.


One Ottawa woman is sharing some serious laughs after an unexpected visitor hung out at her poolside over the weekend.


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In an edited Facebook cover photo, a wet creature is seen sporting sunglasses with a flamingo pool floaty and a cocktail. But the joke started after a bit of an ordeal on May 28.

It was a noisy wake-up call for Nicole Van De Wolfshaar on Saturday morning. She was getting ready to put her morning coffee pot on the barbeque, following Ottawa's storm power outage, when she heard a familiar sound.

Crows started cackling at a predator but she wasn't sure what kind.

"I hear it all the time," Van De Wolfshaar told Narcity. "When they're in the area you know there's something in the backyard."

Maybe it's a fox, she mused to herself, since the creatures sometimes visit her backyard. Other times dogs wander onto her property. That's when she saw it.

"We made eye contact," Van De Wolfshaar says. It was a coyote and it was hanging onto the ledge of her inground pool.

To Van De Wolfshaar, the creature looked tired. She says she talked to it in hopes of coaxing it out of the pool by taking the steps in the pool's shallow end.

"I thought, he just looks like, 'I'm either drowning here or this human is gonna get me out and that's how I imagined the one photo where I really got in close on his eyes," she said. "I didn't feel afraid. I just felt concerned because he seemed under so much stress."

After about 20 minutes, and nonstop commentary from crows, Van De Wolfshaar says she saw the coyote pass through the cedars on her fence line.

It's not the only surprise backyard visitor

According to Van De Wolfshaar, there is at least one coyote that frequents her Glabar Park neighbourhood. Neighbours sometimes remark on seeing it around their properties.

"This is the first time I had an uninvited creature in the pool." So, she shared her photos in a neighbourhood Facebook group. "People were like, 'it was a nice distraction.'"


© Provided by NarcityEdited photo of coyote in the pool.Edited photo of coyote in the pool. Nicole Van De Wolfshaar | Facebook

Someone made a joke and responded, "Looks like they need a poolside drink." The jest took off from there.

At the time Van De Wolfshaar shared her post, she and others in Glabar Park were without power. It was after the May 21 derecho storm that rolled through the province. About 180,000 hydro users in Ottawa were without power immediately after the storm, according to Hydro Ottawa.

Neighbours were posting about how they were charging their devices and where they were going to access the internet.


© Provided by NarcityRacoons on a trampoline.Racoons on a trampoline.Nicole Van De Wolfshaar | Facebook

On May 30, Van De Wolfshaar shared a video to the Facebook group of raccoons running around on her trampoline.

"Never a dull moment in our backyard, it seems! At least someone uses the trampoline," she wrote.

A neighbour responded jokingly, "I assume you are going to declare your backyard a "Wildlife Park" and charge admission? "

Now, Van De Wolfshaar has power again. In the future, however, she says she's she'll be keeping a closer eye out on her backyard for the sake of her two cats.
What My 23-Year-Old Cat Taught Me About Love And Loss


Emma Gilchrist - Tuesday
Chatelaine

Cleo’s journey to me began on a summer’s day in 1995. It was just like every other day that summer, except a field mouse made an appearance in the bathroom while my mum was perched on the toilet.


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Cleo in 2015.

Much commotion ensued. It was decided then and there: We needed a cat.

My dad asked around at work and, luckily, a secretary was harbouring a batch of kittens in her barn. We agreed to take the runt of the litter.

When Cleo arrived at six weeks old, she weighed barely half a pound. I was 10, about to enter Grade 6, and remember snuggling her under my shirt, trying to feed her a bottle.

In hindsight, it’s obvious why I was such a sucker for her underdog story. A decade earlier, I was born to a young, single mother unable to care for me. She relinquished me to the state, which placed me up for adoption. My new family lived 800 kilometres north of where I was born, but just a few miles from the barn where Cleo would end up duking it out with her brothers and sisters.

If she was disadvantaged at all from her start in life, you wouldn’t have known it. In her younger years, Cleo pulled down the Christmas tree and the curtains with a regularity that made my parents question their decision to adopt her.

She roamed free around our house on the edge of a remote Alberta town, regularly dropping mice on the front step, thus fulfilling her assigned duties (aside from that one time she dropped a half-dead mouse on the shoe rack). My dad was convinced she fought off a hawk, based on the talon wounds she ambled in with one morning. In those days, it was a rare treat to wake up to her head on my pillow.

Cleo was spirited, affectionate, enigmatic, but really she could be anything we wanted her to be. Later in life I came to realize pets have a way of filling whatever voids we need them to. If we’re lonely, they offer us companionship. If we’re misunderstood, they offer understanding. If we fear we’re unlovable, they love us anyways. As a teenager, I was all of those things.


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Emma and Cleo in the backyard in Victoria on Cleo’s 20th birthday.

Cleo had an uncanny way of appearing on my bed and licking clean my tears. She was by my side when I realized I may never look into the face of someone who shares my blue-green eyes or learn the origin of my olive skin. In a world in which so much felt slightly off, it seemed Cleo was made just for me.

We spent 10 years apart when I went off to college, but we were reunited for what I like to call “the retirement years.”

Cleo was 17 at the time. We had both grown up and had more love to give. She moved in with me, her head now a constant on my pillow. Soon she needed stairs to get onto the bed.

In our decade apart, I’d turned into a busy professional, pragmatic to a fault—and yet, I thought nothing of her waking me up countless times a night.

Like so many people, I had become stuck in the cycle of being “busy”; life somehow turned into a steady string of commitments. Though I had a hard time envisioning how children could fit into the chaos, my life readily morphed to fit a geriatric cat.

I found myself turning down social events, wanting nothing more than to be at home with Cleo asleep on my chest, snoring lightly in my ear. I’d stay still for impossible periods of time as my neck stiffened and my bladder filled. She’d burrow her nose under mine and I’d inhale her exhales.

Soon, the incline of Cleo’s stairs became too steep, so my dad built her a new set from scratch in his shed. They stuck out about half a metre from the bed. We dubbed it “the royal staircase,” which seemed to soften the blow every time my boyfriend stubbed his toe on the way to the bathroom.

"Mama was my greatest teacher, a teacher of compassion, love and fearlessness. If love is sweet as a flower, then my mother is that sweet flower of love." —Stevie Wonder

As Cleo’s age crept up—21, 22, 23—I spent many hours committing her to memory.

Her smell: a mix of cat food and fur and duvet cover. Her nose felt like velvet. She had this way of collapsing perfectly into the nook of my arm and exhaling with a heavy purr.

I knew the sound of her entering a room off by heart. First, the click-click-click of her right hip—like a tired grandfather clock that occasionally skips a beat. Then the whistling, her lungs heavy, gurgling and growling, almost like a gremlin lived inside of her.


© Provided by ChatelaineCat perched on rocky ground with water and tree-line in the background

In her final months, I started taking Cleo with me everywhere, and this was the first time she saw the ocean, in Port Renfrew, B.C.

Our vet was continually amazed by Cleo’s good health, saying if she didn’t know any better she’d have guessed she was 12 in her 22nd year. I looked up the Guinness World Record for oldest living cat and as recently as 2013, a 23-year-old feline held the title. We had a chance.

But on the day Cleo turned 23, everything changed. She started having seizures and, after a flurry of vet visits, we learned they were likely caused by a brain tumour.

I cancelled a back-country hiking trip, stayed home for the rest of the summer, and tried every alternative therapy under the sun: acupuncture, Chinese herbs, CBD oil.

We eked out a blissful three-month seizure-free period, and then she relapsed. I came home from a surf trip and she was a different cat—weak, confused, barely able to ascend the royal staircase.

The end is a blur of memories, most of which I wish I could forget. Giving her a bath in the middle of the night after she peed herself (she purred as the warm water hit her skin), watching her struggle to walk (I cried), covering the mattress in absorbent pads (anything for Cleo), hearing her hiss at me for the first time (the moment I knew it was really over).

Cleo had reached 111 in cat years, and it appeared our extraordinary run was over.


© Provided by ChatelaineCleo and Emma

One of Cleo and Emma’s last photos together, in the week before they said their goodbyes.

The morning before we said goodbye, she bounded up the royal staircase onto the bed, landed her wet nose on mine and cleaned my face. I’ve never savoured a moment more in my whole life.

The next day, after another seizure, I called our vet and asked her how to decide when it was “time.” She said to just be with her and listen to what she wants. I signed off from work, curled up in bed with her on my chest and asked if she was ready. About an hour later, she projectile vomited and had the most horrifying seizure I’d ever seen. It was time.

I spent the afternoon on the bedroom floor with her. I put on my thickest socks, filled a hot water bottle I’d had since childhood and tucked her under the blanket on my chest. I’m not sure who I was comforting—me or her.

When I packed her into the car, wrapped in warm towels, she mercifully didn’t wake up. The song “Shallow” from A Star is Born started playing on the radio as I pulled up to a traffic light. “I’m off the deep end/watch as I dive in /I’ll never meet the ground.” The light turned to green. “We’re far from the shallow now.”

And then it was over, just like that. The moment I’d been dreading for a third of my life. I came home and robotically cleared away her things. No more water glass on the floor by the bed. No stairs to stub our toes on. No Chinese herbs on the counter. No hip clicks or the sound of her breathing. I could barely eat for four days.

In the days after Cleo died, I clung frantically to the physical evidence of her. I backed up all my photos twice. I texted my parents, asking them to remove her litter box and then panicked at the thought of them discarding it, realizing I could use it as a flower planter. I woke in the middle of the night, gripped by the realization I didn’t have a video of her dipping her paw in my water glass.

She was everything I’d ever loved. She was homemade chocolate chip cookie dough and the feeling of sun on my face and the faint memory of my mum singing to me in her rocking chair.

I dreamt of Cleo night after night—her wet nose dabbing my face; finding her in the guest room and realizing she hadn’t died after all; giving a eulogy for her at a memorial hosted in my high school gym.

Most of my friends empathized with how hard it can be to lose a pet, but others didn’t get it. Some people didn’t even acknowledge my loss, which left me reeling not just from losing my companion since childhood, but also questioning my right to feel sad in the first place. I knew the world was full of such greater tragedy, but I also knew that losing Cleo felt like cutting my heart out of my chest.

My grief was disorienting and alienating. And yet, I found myself feeling clearer than ever about what I wanted in my life. I became kinder to myself and felt my heart opening to friends and family in new ways.

Three months after Cleo’s death, on a gloriously sunny spring day, I was sitting in my doctor’s office. After 20 years on the birth control pill, I was finally ready to talk about going off it. All the messiness and hardship of having children had begun to look less daunting and more worthwhile in Cleo’s wake.

Cheryl Strayed, the author of Wild, said on her advice podcast that the gift of grief is how it changes you.

It was hard to see at first, but it’s clearer now. Loving Cleo—and losing her—changed me in all the very best of ways. She taught me to slow down, to be tender, to make time for the people who matter. She taught me that when we run out of heartbeats, how much we loved is all that counts.

When it came time for Cleo and I to say our final goodbyes, all I could say was: thank you. Thank you for 23 years and six months. Thank you for comforting me through some of the ugliest moments of my life. Thank you for showing me the best parts of myself. Thank you for teaching me how to love.

I LOST MY LONGTIME PAL DHARMA, THIS REMINDED ME OF HIM